On 20 July 2011, I gave birth to our second son at home in the bathtub. A planned, wonderful and fast home birth . It took only 1 hour and 15 minutes in the bath water, the midwife arrived when the contractions started, and joined us in the last 15 minutes . The body was energized and whole right after birth .
In Sweden home birth is less common than the number of people who say ”No thanks”, to traditional cancer treatment!
Giving birth at home has almost the same collective fear as saying ”No thanks” to cancer treatment. The collective energy of saying “What if this and that happens….what if your child dies?!
I had no fear, it felt completely natural and it was reflected in my entire network. My whole family and friends were so enthusiastic, but when they mentioned it to their frinds, they heard reactions like , “I hope nothing goes wrong .. . “,” How dare she , what if something urgent happens … ”
Every time we make choices, which are true to one Self, even if they go against the collective energy, we support our evolution . At the same time we are paving the way for others to more easily trust following their inner voice, which supports their evolution.
Often are we tested just before we reach our intention. It may turn up as an unexpected challenge or like doubt. Here’s where many stop trusting their inner knowing and give in to the fear.
I did get a test myself, in regards with the home birth.
Firstly I got the answer that no midwife in my area would support the homebirth. One early morning I did wake up and typed in a few words to google and found one professor, living 50 km from us. She is one of the strongest voices for home birth in Sweden and also in the world. I couldn’t wait until the time was decent enough to give her a call. She said YES and we agreed about how much she would be paid.
I had due date of July 10th. On that day (Sunday), she sent me a SMS and said, “He better speed up because I am going to Uppsala on Wednesday or Thursday and she would be gone a few days.” I interpreted that she would then not be available during the time. I was with that meaning for two days and it stressed me. I really felt in all cells that home birth was the right thing.
Thanks to this text, I got the chance to observe the feelings of impatience, anticipation and sadness coming up to the surface. I got present with those unhealed parts of myself and surrendered to the idea that if I had to give birth in hospital – so be it.
Wednesday I called her and then it turned out that she was 100% with me and was going to travel from Uppsala (3 h drive) once the contractions started. In the end she chose to stay home, which was a nice feeling to know that she was only an hour away when the birth started.
If we know a test can show up, when we almost reached the goal, then it will not be the same surprise. Instead our focus goes to become present with the doubt or the other emotions that arise in the situation. If the intention really means something to us, the ego can get attached and that is what will will get to mean in these tests. When we surrender we open the energy to allow it to come in.
This metaphor is demonstrated in how the ancient labyrinths were constructed . When you got into them they first goe further and further toward the center of the center. When one is closest to the center the labyrinth takes a turn all the way out again. The experience of taking the turn all the way out again is the test. It often triggers feelings like “I will never reach their intent”. The fact is that if one keeps going, then the maze takes a steep curve all the way to the center.
To do something we ‘ve never done before, something that’s outside the comfort zone is natural if it feels a bit challenging. We have no experience to lean back on. When , however, we continue all to follow our heart’s voices and release doubts then there is a quantum leap in our evolution.
What maze are you in right now?
If a test would show up, what kids of test could that be, that could trigger you not reaching the center of maze (not reaching your intent)?
What feelings would you feel?
What thought forms would show up?
If you get present and at peace with them now, then you won’t be tested in that area.
Let’s go 100% in the process of having your intention become a reality. And celebrate the evolution in doing so!
/ Susanne Billander
Susanne has written the book ” META – Health – Consciously healing your body and soul “
If you want to learn more about META – Health this book is a good first step . It contains a directory at the end. There you can get information about the conflict, which triggers various organs , as well as the symptoms that appear in conflict and recovery phase.
To order it, go to http://www.metahealth.se/products